Moonswimming
I can't find the words lately. They fall out beneath my feet like land when swimming. One second they are there, the next, tenous, whispering, barely acknowledged. Like they never were.
I try to explain this to the people closest to me, and I find myself tongue tied, I who cannot ever keep still. I can't say why suddenly the sky has fallen, and the cycles have begun to overwhelm me. I cannot explain why it's me on the deck in moonlight, trying to cry quietly so I won't have to tell you I just don't fucking know why it still hurts, regardless of anything.
The words have escaped, and it's beginning to feel that everything else is trying to follow.
I can't find the reason, nor the will...
I try to explain this to the people closest to me, and I find myself tongue tied, I who cannot ever keep still. I can't say why suddenly the sky has fallen, and the cycles have begun to overwhelm me. I cannot explain why it's me on the deck in moonlight, trying to cry quietly so I won't have to tell you I just don't fucking know why it still hurts, regardless of anything.
The words have escaped, and it's beginning to feel that everything else is trying to follow.
I can't find the reason, nor the will...
glad to see I'm not the only one, maybe I should liek you, keep shut up. I tend to run like diarrhea of the mouth and upset ppl
Posted by Anonymous | 12:02 p.m.
Hope things get better.
Posted by Anonymous | 9:57 p.m.
from this entry i supposed you're feeling better??!!
Posted by Anonymous | 6:37 a.m.
I'm feeling odd lately....very odd....I pride myself on being able to communicate, so when I can't I get frustrated, lash out, and then close in...
It sucks...
Posted by thordora | 8:48 a.m.
sounds very familiar.
Posted by Anonymous | 1:11 p.m.
Life comes in waves... we ride the peaks and ride out the valleys...
Just be gentle to yourself and let it run its course.
Posted by Anonymous | 5:36 p.m.