I walked the roads for you today
because of you
some might say
in spite of you
sirens roared past and I
immediately felt you,
soft cold hands
wrapped tight around
food that is not food
my fingers
your life
and water came unbidden as I
saw you once again tube tied
to a bed in some room that
never was your room so
white so dripping in
frozen time I cannot begun to tell
those roads surrendered my
grief unto themselves
absorbing, breathing in
as the air escaped
let go
the aching sky mentions
let it all go
I see your dead eyes again. The sky has claimed them.
***********************************
Mommy, I miss you. My daughters miss what they don't have. My father misses his wife. Please come home.
We loved you.
because of you
some might say
in spite of you
sirens roared past and I
immediately felt you,
soft cold hands
wrapped tight around
food that is not food
my fingers
your life
and water came unbidden as I
saw you once again tube tied
to a bed in some room that
never was your room so
white so dripping in
frozen time I cannot begun to tell
those roads surrendered my
grief unto themselves
absorbing, breathing in
as the air escaped
let go
the aching sky mentions
let it all go
I see your dead eyes again. The sky has claimed them.
***********************************
Mommy, I miss you. My daughters miss what they don't have. My father misses his wife. Please come home.
We loved you.
Beautiful and I hope it helped you to write it.
Posted by
Anonymous |
11:10 a.m.
I thought about you this morning before I turned on my lap top. Also last night as I was reading "Tickled Pink" by Rita Rudner. She lost her mom at 13 from cancer as well.
Try to have a good day, tell your babies a wonderful story about their grandma.
Posted by
Anonymous |
12:00 p.m.
*HUGS!!!!!!!!!*
I know today was hard for you. Hope you're doing okay...
Unrelatd: looks like you've got a spam comment. Does this mean the wicked word verf is in your future?
Posted by
Anonymous |
11:20 p.m.
that was absolutely BEAUTIFUL - heartbreaking but beautiful :'-( I can only IMAGINE how you are all feeling but my thoughts are with you (came by via blogmad) I am so sorry that you had to go throught this but still - your words are BEAUTIFUL!! they really are! xxx
Posted by
Anonymous |
9:40 a.m.
Thanks guys. I think this came out pretty well, considering it was written in my head on a walk to work, and barely tweaked.
And I don't mind the spam. So no worries. The evil word verf will not rear it's head. :P
Side Note
AND to add insult to injury, I had to have an internal exam yesterday as part of getting my appt for a tubal. I had my period. I've never been so bloody uncomfortable, or wanted to just plain old cry in the doctors office as I did yesterday. And now I have a fucking rotten headache.
But it's payday, and the day is half over. So yeah.
Posted by
thordora |
12:44 p.m.